\'If we had a keen vision and feeling of all ordinary human life, it would be like hearing the grass grow and the squirrel\'s heart beat, and we should die of that roar which lies on the other side of silence.\'George Eliot, Middlemarch Having spent her life trying to patch up the souls of others, psychiatrist Linda Gask came to realise that being an expert in depression didn\'t confer any immunity from it - she had to learn take care of herself, too. Artfully crafted and told with warmth and honesty, this is the story of Linda\'s journey, interwoven with insights into her patients\' diverse experiences of depression -inextricably linked with problems in the past and the present such as vulnerability, fear, loss, loneliness, dependence and grief. She sets out to convey, in a new and original way, how it truly feels to experience this devastating illness, what psychotherapy is about, and the role of medication- and provides hope for those who suffer from depression and their loved ones whilst busting the stigma of mental illness.